this morning, in an ever so typical Filipino mode of transportation (tricycle), i saw a man, maybe around his forties, with tattooes all over his body. maybe if he was sitting, you will think that he is a man of strength, but actually, when i saw him, he was holding a cane (baston) and he was also accompanied by i think two people to support his walking. it was actually funny, if you will think about it. i mean, imagine seeing a tattooed man with a cane? isn't it peculiar? isn't it that a tattooed man should be seen walking in an "angas" way, or carrying a heavy load? but with a cane to support his walking?
after i saw that man, i told myself to scratch the funny part. that man actually is an example of a type of Filipino - a Filipino who has no priorities in life. until now, i still can't understand why some people are trying hard to save money just to satisfy their material needs? like having a tattoo for example. like what most of us usually ask, ano bang makukuha nila dun?
anyway, at school, we made pizza. too bad it became salty. i guess we used too much salt while making the dough. it should have been delicious, if not for the crust. the rest of the class had been the same as it always had. the only subject that made my day colorful, or should i say, miserable was......never mind..
i cried because of that. i really did. when i went down comsci building, justine and luis talked to me..
"hindi ko talaga tanggap!"
blah blah blah... my tears that time were really stubborn, they wanted to come out!
justine said, "ui, wag kang iiyak..ellaine wag kang umiyak.."
yan tuloy.. umiyak tuloy ako..
even me (i?) can't believe it. this is the first time that i cried because of that. maybe because i didn't expect it to happen. i've been doing good with it, and now, i still don't understand why. i really cried a lot. i didn't just cry with tears.. as in may hikbi pa..i want to say something.. but my words were paputul-putol na because of my hikbi..
"hin(hikbi)di na niya ka(hikbi)kasi ako(hikbi)...."
then luis said.. "o?wag mong iyakan un..magagawan pa yan ng paraan..kausapin mo lang xa..anong sinabi mo?ano na raw mangyayari?"
haay...i don't want to remember it again..
i really want to say so many things regarding this subject, but as my mother always tells me, "more talk, more mistake"
[i want to say sorry to raphael and luis because we arrived late at social studies because of my drama awhile ago.]
when i arrived at home, i talked to my mom. i explained everything to her. i cried in front of her! imagine that! nahihiya na ako sa nanay ko...its as if she still loves me in spite of me not doing anything to make her happy, or to make her proud. i can't do anything but just to show my respect to her and to love her. and now, to tell her these things? tapos it was her birthday yesterday, i really want to kill myself now.. after our talk, she still comforted me. she understood everything. siya pa nga ung nagsabing hindi iniiyakan ang mga ganung klase ng bagay. she handed me a towel and told me to wipe my tears..
i love my mom..
hai..i hate this month. august had been a very strenous, tiring, depressing, and all the things that i hate. activities and important requirements came after each other. upcat. periodic exams. submission of requirements, projects. sabayang pagbigkas. for some people, submission of acet papers.musical play. pe exercise. research. and the revelation of the final grades.
the heck. i'm really looking forward to our foundation day. too bad i heard there will be no field demo anymore this year. meron na ngang booths ulit, tapos banda ata, tapos wala namang field demo.. what's the point?it will still never be complete.
oh well, new principal, new rules.
_aKu_
- MY LIFE STORY -
ako si mani..bakit mani? kasi masarap ako! haha (what the hell does that mean?) anyway, you found me, that's what's important..sabi sau e..hindi ako mahirap hanapin ^_^ thanks for bothering looking for me..even though i'm a mere nut only..thank you! i really appreciate your effort..
i want to be revitalized..i want to start anew..i'm getting tired of doing things that will seem to have no good outcome..i want to take back my pride, my dignity..
for those who have been hurt because of me, my actions, and my big mouth, i am very sorry..i know my faults, and i really want to make up for the mistakes that i have done..i have done my best and exerted a lot of effort..but to no avail. i have done my part and i think it is time to give myself a break..
please don't get me wrong..i am still here and is patiently waiting..but i guess i just have to let things be carried by the wind..i realized that sometimes, i really will not be able to control things..
and for those FEW people who could understand me and is always there beside me, thank you. i really thank you for being very patient to me..i just hope that you will never leave and will always be my friends.. =)
this is mani..and i hope you'll enjoy my new boring blog..haha XD
.lab ku.
tubig
sunlight
minerals
God
luis ^_^
green and yellow
.yak.
cockroaches
traffic jams
back stabbers
people pretending to be a somebody
