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Saturday, September 23, 2006
right now i am inside paco pc.the heck i don't know why i'm here. =)

anyway, i just want to tell something about 2 songs i have composed. it all started because of our subject, humanities. we had to make an original song out of a chapter in psalms. this is the first one:

Chorus:
I will always thank the Lord
I will never stop praising Him
I will praise Him for what He has done
May all who are oppressed listen and be glad
Let us praise His name together

I prayed to the Lord and He answered me
He has freed me from all my fears
The oppressed look to Him and are very glad
They will never again be sad

chorus

The helpless called to Him and He answered them
He saved them from troubles they had
His angels guard those who are honoring the Lord
And they rescue them from dangers around

and just last friday, philippe told me that mr apejas was einstein's new teacher in humanities and he also told einstein to do their own song as well. he was worrying because although their group is a "power house", they still have not composed a song yet. so he asked for my help. uhh, wait..i think its the other way around.. i think i offered my help.. [haha].. coz that's what friends are por...weeeee

so this is the next song i have composed just last night. i started doing this at around 10 pm.. i finished this at 11:

Clap your hands for joy, all people
Praise God with loud songs
The Lord, the Most High, is to be feared
Ruling over all the world
He gave us victory over the people
doo wap! oooh..
Coz He loves us all

God sits on His throne
There are shouts of joy for Him alone
Sing our praises to God
God is king over all the world
Praise Him with songs!

God sits on His throne
The rulers of the nations assemble with His people
oooh..lalala
He rules supreme
He rules supreme..

oh well..just don't mind those written above. haha. just want to save this to remind myself after some time that i have composed something. =)

- MY LIFE STORY -

Sunday, September 03, 2006

so aun..we went down the bus pagkalagpas na nung bridge..or whatever you call it..so we still had to walk a bit far to reach the street where we could ride a jeepney towards moa. the sun was not shining, but it was raining, sankapa.. again, good thing luis brought an umbrella. whew.

after so much distance walking, we already rode a jeepney, then after a few minutes, we were already at moa. after a more walking, *drum rolls*...we already saw mendel! but i didn't expect to see that only few people came. just like what i used to do, here is list of those who came:

1. nica
2. jayv
3. philippe
4. margaux
5. nino
6. aby
7. vanir
8. luis
9. carlos miguel

by the time we got there, nica told me that they had already done some activities. they had finished skating and just finished eating a 1000 pesos worth of meal. (good thing we arrived late..haha..i don't want to spend so much money for food!) picture picture.. then we decided to go to timezone (wait..timezone nga ba un?nakalimutan ko na..) to play. hai.. its fun, because we were together again. but its tiring..

later, i became thirsty. so philippe and luis accompanied me outside to buy some refreshments. when we stepped outside timezone, we couldn't see a store which sells water. actually, there are some, but we were too shy to enter a certain store just to buy a bottle of water instead of buying their real product. but because of the killing thirst that i felt that time, we had no choice but to do it.

...its really nakakahiya, but we still managed to laugh when we went out the store.. =)

after playing, we went to kameraworld to get our pictures. when we got it, luis went home. and the rest of us went to kfc to eat. kwentuhan..tawanan.. really tiring but fulfilling. i miss mendel so much. too bad that there were only 8 mendels there and jayv. but still, its fun. i remembered a conversation with leo, i think last 25, that he wants to plan a reunion of mendel. he told me to talk about it with chad, and the rest of the boys.

exciting..haha

anyway, we went home around 6? or 7? we bade ourselves goodbye. as i was on my way to go home, in an fx bound to sta. ana, i realized something that really made me nervous: tomorrow there will be a play, and there's no one to accompany me!

i don't want it to happen again..

anyway, saturday ended, and i still don't know who to text to know if he/she could accompany me. sunday morning came, and just after some minutes after i woke up, realization that i still don't have someone to go to the play with hit me.

but still, i managed to find some way. i ended up going to st. paul with lawrence. when we arrived there, many mascians were already lined up. the play was supposed to start at 4 pm sharp, but because we are talking about Filipinos here, the staff of the play let us in the theater at already past 4.

even though there were some students who got inside the theater ahead of us (i'm talking about those who arrived later than us), we still managed to get the best seats (in my opinion) in the theater. we got the seats on the upper deck, at the very first row. too bad my glasses were broken at the time being, so i hadn't got the chance to really see the faces of the actors and actresses. the venue was really plush and clean. i wish masci was like that. oh well. libre mangarap. =)

Tsinoy was better than the other plays i have watched. maybe the venue contributed to my observation, but i could really say that it was good. although there were some parts that bored me, it was fun watching it.

i went home alone, again. i guess i have to get used to it. anyway, i am a melancholic person, and i think that the act goes with my personality.

anyway, monday was as tiring as the preceding two. it was research day. we attended no class. i arrived at school a little early that i got the chance to attend the flag ceremony. after the morning activity, we already prepared the necessary papers for us to go outside masci and conduct our research. (aia, julie, me, raphael, erick, and luis.) around past 7, we were ready to go. rode luis' car, then went first to mwss. then after our mission there, rode a jeep towards tandang sora. stopped over a 7 11 store. then rode a pedro-gil bound bus. ate our lunch at burger king. there, we saw ms. dyan correa, ms. villanueva, and sir bautista. afterwards, we went to alva-pedro gil branch, researched something about moringa seeds and bamboo, then off we went to bureau of plant industry at quirino avenue.

after the trip, we went back to masci. it was a little past 4 then, so we had no chance to attend computer science. we headed towards the mapeh room. after cleaning the room, the rest of the lawrence came, and almi informed me of the stupid summative test that i have not yet taken. and that's where it all started.

now, i have no problem anymore (as of now...). it was all done. it was solved.

the drama i did last wednesday was just to add some color to the story.. tsk

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Friday, September 01, 2006
Before i tell you anything about the continuation of my drama last wednesday, let me tell you something first about what happened to my band(?) last week.

Wait a second, did i already mention my band in this blog? I don't think so. Let me introduce it to you.

I admit that we are still amateurs. It all started when we were in third year. The foundation day was coming nearer, and included in the day's activities was a battle of the bands. i was excited then because at last i'd be able to see my friends on-stage, playing rock music (usually opm) that they usually play inside our classrooms. Being a vocalist of a band was not a part of my plans in life then, because of my being introvert and because the quality of my voice then was not appropriate for rock music. (maybe for acoustic or just the slow songs.) So you can imagine my surprise when emerson asked me if i could be the vocalist of the band they planned to form. i asked him who were the members, and he answered me jarold, luis, mark ladaga, and him.

i cannot say no, because i was afraid that they will think i am selfish and maarte. so i agreed. and hey, it will be a new experience, i thought, so i gave it a try. the first time we practiced became the last too. it was a saturday, somebody among them told me that we're going to have a practice at buendia. meeting place, nirvana. funny, that time i don't know where buendia is, because what i know was gil puyat, because i am used to riding lrt, not jeepneys going to buendia. (nica made me like that. the first time i went to buendia was when i was in second year, to go to nica's house, and she made me go there by lrt.) that time i was having second thoughts whether to go or not, because luis and jarold both live at las piñas, while i was the only one from manila. emerson lives near buendia, and mark, uhh, i don't know.. (sorry!)

anyway, i still chose to go, since that time we have only a few assignments, i think, (or none at all?whatever..). when i arrived at buendia, i didn't know where to go. since nirvana was located at the corner of buendia and taft, i didn't know which side to go: buendia or taft? i chose buendia, because they told me to meet at nirvana, buendia.

ding! wrong choice.. luis and jarold were waiting for me at nirvana, facing taft avenue. i could still remember what i was wearing that time: a crocheted longsleeves, a pink sleeveless within, and jeans. yuck, i know. but i just had allergies that time, so you can't blame me. it was a rainy day too, that's why i was wearing those. uhh, as for the two who waited for me at nirvana, all i can remember is that they were both wearing shirt and jeans.

on with the story..

i asked them what would happen next. they told me that we're going to go to emerson's house. it was a long walk, from buendia to emerson's house. too bad it was also rainy, and i brought no umbrella that time. good thing luis lent me his. he told me his umbrella was maxadong girlaloo..that's why he's lending me it.

when we arrived at emerson's house, they were hospitable. they let us ate our lunch there. we even played ps2 in their house. but because of them being oh so hospitable, so many time passed by wasted. i can't remember what time i arrived at buendia, so i also don't know what time we were at the studio that day. basta, the one hour that we spent in the studio, in my opinion, was also wasted. because within that one hour, all we practiced was just a song: 214. the heck..we were actually not organized.. and that time i'm blaming myself for that. we don't know what songs are we going to play, for my voice is not, just like what i said, for rock music. for luis and jarold, it was fine for them to play acoustic songs. but according to emerson, he and mark are rakistas.. so we had no chemistry. but they still pursued to continue the band.

that day ended mejo fruitless.. as usual, i went home alone, because i was the only one living in manila. the foundation day was coming nearer and nearer, and i was getting nervous and excited at the same time. i am not into performing in front of many people. (stage-fright).

monday came. emerson was absent. we were having mixed emotions that time - angry, panicked, nervous, and everything. the saturday before had been nothing, and we still don't know what to play at the day of the battle.

the next day, tuesday, a news shocked jarold, luis, and me(I?). emerson told us that he's out, because we had no chemistry. i was into acoustic, while he and mark were into rock. we were so disappointed that time. iniwan niya kami sa ere. he left us in a vital point. he left us kung kelan pa malapit na ang foundation day. at the same day, timothy told us that there will be no more battle of the bands. instead, only exhibition of the bands will take place. whoo! God is really great.

anyway.. although we were already disbanded even before we were actually formed, the remaining three of us decided that it will never be the end. we'll show the people that we can go on even without emerson. since jarold will play the rhythm guitar, luis the lead, and i will hold the microphone, the only musicians we should find were for the bass and drums. we realized that it was hard, because in our school, there are only selected few who know how to play drums. and those few were already a part of another band, or they simply don't want to join. after some time hunting, we already filled up the slots. ralph decided to study how to play drums, while taquio will play the bass guitar.

it was too late to sign ourselves up for the upcoming exhibition of the bands, but we decided that it was okay, for we had no practices. on the day of the foundation day, we were surprised to see emerson as a member of another band, playing as..uhh...oh well i forgot. but i think he was sick that time, because we noticed that he was shivering and he wore a very thick sweater/jacket..whatever you call it..

anyway, that is how we were formed. since then, we practiced only once in a while. but when the end of the school year approached, we weren't able to have some practices because of the hectic schedule, and we also hadn't got the chance to talk to each other and plan something. same thing happened during summer vacation. jarold told me that there were actually some attempts to have practices, but because of ralph, the "artista" of our band (because he always has an appointment), those attempts became nothing.

and, just last week, my sister told me that we will play at the "holy committal" of her daughter, mikka. i was shocked, but i had nothing to do but to obey because that's how things go in our house. when i told the news to my fellow bandmates, they became shocked and nervous, for we didn't practice for so many months. akala pa nga namin wala na ung banda, kasi nga hindi na kami nakakatugtog..

and so, the only practice that we had was last friday, august 25, 2006. we decided to play acoustic, because there was no drumset in the venue, and ralph won't be able to go, because artista nga xa..haha..we practiced at my mother's small private school (Awakened Learners' Knox, Inc.)..that day, the classes were cut at noon because the school will be fumigated. so right after dismissal, after some minutes chatting with friends, the four of us, jarold, taquio, luis, and me(i?haha), headed to ALKI. there, because of my mother being hospitable, she made us ate in a carinderia near the school. after eating, we started to practice. my sister told me that we're going to play at most 3 songs after the holy committal. so we practiced three songs, all acoustic. (especially for you, tell me where it hurts, and ako'y sayo, ika'y akin lamang.) and narda, a special request from my brother-in-law. we thought of other songs we could play, in case the audience asked for more.. (haha..feeling). but we didn't furnish it, because we really expected to play only 3 songs.

the practice ended around 3?or 4? i can't remember. we agreed to meet the next day at around 8 am, there at ALKI. i was not actually nervous, maybe because i thought our audience was my family itself only.

but when saturday came, and we already met each other, my heart started to beat so fast i realized i was already nervous. at ALKI, we first had our last-minute practice, just to be sure. they also prepared the instruments. then, off we went.

at the jeepney, luis suddenly realized that we left the extension cord jarold brought. oh no. so he went back to ALKI while jarold, taquio, and i went to dreamhouse ahead.





the venue was simple, i realized that my sister invited only a few people, which was a relief. we decided to wait for luis outside the venue since the program was not yet starting. when he arrived, we went back inside and prepared the instruments. holy committal is the same as the binyag in catholic. it is the term used by iglesias ni cristo. it was the first time i saw how an iglesia ni cristo was christened. unlike in roman catholics, iglesias ni cristo don't christen a baby with the use of holy water and stuff. instead, they only pray, and commit the baby to God. no tradition-bound actions. nothing. just prayers.

after the ceremony, eating started. and of course, we started playing. i don't want to dig in the details, for it's of no importance. =)

last august 26 was also bdt's anniversary. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY FELLOW BDT MEMBERS! i'm sorry this greeting was a bit late, for many things happened that i haven't got the time in blog writings. the very original plan was for MENDEL to go to ENchanted Kingdom. but since people weren't able to save money, and some of us had no idea of the plan, we sort of ended in going to moa na lang.

so, around 1 pm, as what was agreed upon, we left the venue. jarold had no other activities for the day, so he decided to go home. taquio, luis, and i went first to masci. taquio will go somewhere else, while luis told me that he will just return the guitar to francia, who was at masci then.

in front of masci, we couldn't see francia. we thought that she didn't come. if that will be the case, it will be hard for us to go to moa because we will carry many things, or maybe we'll not go to moa anymore na lang. we texted francia. no reply. luis then decided to call her. funny, because all the time francia was there, she was just inside masci, making the bulletin board for computer science together with dale and ron.

we decided to go inside, too, to see their work. we realized that they were already finished, and was also about to go home too. after some minutes chatting, and getting the assignment for math iv from francia, we rode a bus towards baclaran to go to moa.

in the bus, we saw ron lester crisostomo (the conceited man..). we invited him to sit with us, but because of him being a loner.. (hmph), he declined. there, we only talked of a few things. i was too tired to talk, and at the same time i am excited to see mendel again. we just talked about how silly we had been earlier, and the funny parts of our performance.

[inaantok na ako..to be continued na lang..]


- MY LIFE STORY -

ako si mani..bakit mani? kasi masarap ako! haha (what the hell does that mean?) anyway, you found me, that's what's important..sabi sau e..hindi ako mahirap hanapin ^_^ thanks for bothering looking for me..even though i'm a mere nut only..thank you! i really appreciate your effort..

i want to be revitalized..i want to start anew..i'm getting tired of doing things that will seem to have no good outcome..i want to take back my pride, my dignity..

for those who have been hurt because of me, my actions, and my big mouth, i am very sorry..i know my faults, and i really want to make up for the mistakes that i have done..i have done my best and exerted a lot of effort..but to no avail. i have done my part and i think it is time to give myself a break..

please don't get me wrong..i am still here and is patiently waiting..but i guess i just have to let things be carried by the wind..i realized that sometimes, i really will not be able to control things..

and for those FEW people who could understand me and is always there beside me, thank you. i really thank you for being very patient to me..i just hope that you will never leave and will always be my friends.. =)

this is mani..and i hope you'll enjoy my new boring blog..haha XD

.lab ku.

tubig
sunlight
minerals
God
luis ^_^
green and yellow

.yak.

cockroaches
traffic jams
back stabbers
people pretending to be a somebody

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| leslie |

siTes
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| my friendsTer acc0unt | his friendsTer acc0unt |
| quizzes | skin | fanfiction | masci f0rum |

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MISS YOU

everyday and every night
this feeling i'd fight
try as i might but i won't win
i surrender, i'd die
you are winning here alright

every morning when the sun
would shine on me
i'd flash a smile but deep inside
i feel so sad and lonely
I NEED YOU HERE AND NOW

i miss you
it's crazy to pretend that
i don't think of you
the more this feeling
just seems to grow and grow

i miss you
oh how much longer can i hold on to?
maybe you can come and tell me
that you miss me too =)

miss you..

all i want is for this love
to last forever
you walked away, never came back
oh i tried to recover
i can't bear it boy alright

when i hear a song
that we had used to share
i try as might to hide the tears
and when the pain is over
i wish that you are near