.my life.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
hmm..matalino ka talaga! nakakatuwa..wahehe...ang galing talaga! amazing whoo..haha..

hihi..alam ko namang mapagkakatiwalaan ka..nakakakaba ka naman..haha.. =)

hmmmmm.....wala akong nakitang filecase sa nat'l bookstore sa robinsons kanina..hmph..paper bag na nga lang tsaka refill ng g-tech..and of course ice cream!

gusto ko ng teddy bear..any sizes, pero mas favorable ung malaki..hahaha..hmm..gusto ko ng cds..kahit kanino..basta cd..ung bagong mapapakinggan..haha..hmm...gusto ko ng bagong libro...kahit ano basta maganda..mas ok kung ung "Boys will put you on a pedestal....blah blah" [forgot the whole title and who the author is..]..nawala kasi ni mama sa plane nung pumunta xa ng davao.. >_< hmm..gusto ko ng keychain, cake, bag, pillow, FILECASE...basta marami..ano ba yan..bat ko ba to sinusulat..wala lang kasi akong magawa.......

wala na sa phonebook ko...great! =)

nabasa ko ung blog ni yani...ang kyut nung latest post nia..napaisip tuloy ako..siguro ung mga nangyayari sakin ngaun, e kalokohan lang..i mean, ung totoong para talaga sakin ay nanjan lang somewhere out there, maybe hindi ko pa nakikilala..at ang mga nararamdaman ko ngaun e mga paepal na feelings lang..para matuto ako..siguro nakilala ko na xa, siguro hindi pa..mas maganda nga siguro na wag na munang isipin ang mga ganitong klase ng bagay..dahil darating at darating talaga sometime sa buhay natin ung totoo na..ung seryoso na..ung super compatible na talaga...and now is ABSOLUTELY not the time to meet/know him..siguro hindi ko pa xa kilala..siguro kilala ko na..kung kilala ko man, siguro.......

never mind..ang hirap iexplain...basta ang gagawin ko na lang...wala na..period...stop na..i have so many friends to think about..basta ganun...may nabasa ako..may gusto raw xang batukan kasi ang sobrang stupid daw kung sino man un..hmm...sino kaya un?hehe....nakakacurious.. =)

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Tuesday, November 21, 2006
"whoever he is, he doesn't know what he is missing.."
-ceLiz Embuscado

thank you celiz for your words of endearment..and please don't tell yourself you've committed a very bad thing against me..batukan kita jan e..haha! =)

no classes today, for its the opening of the "palarong maynila" at rizal memorial [not sure of the place.] but anyway, other years were obliged to go to school for a session of mtap was held..i miss those mtap sessions..i used to be bored with those classes, but now, i miss them..how ironic!

last night, i told dale that i already know the whole truth..haha..then he called me and asked everything..he told me to not cry..of course i will never cry! [i just hope that its easy to do..]

i wish everything was back way before everything started. i was okay then. but why?

last night, i had trouble sleeping..thinking of things..i was on the verge of crying.. [joke! =)] so i woke up at hmm..around 8 am, i think..i had a very bad dream..it was like somebody's chasing after me [the setting was in a church, mind you!]..we were like jerks..i was running, hiding from this certain man [just inside the church, a little funny, ne?] but still, he keeps on running after me..its seems that at first, he was chasing after all girls..but suddenly,i was the only girl left to be chased. other people in the church were just sitting there, not minding me, or the man chasing me..its a little freaky. up to now, i can't figure out who this man is..in my dream, i think he was a man working for the church..a bishop, or something..its really freaky...

when i woke up, it seems that it was all real..my body was aching all over, and i had a slight headache..this afternoon, another freaky thing happened to me..dale and i were talking on the phone...in the midst of our conversation i suddenly sang a song..and you know what? somebody suddenly said..

"ang ganda naman ng boses mo..sige, kanta ka pa.."

at first i thought dale was playing a joke on me..i thought that while i was singing, he gave his receiver to somebody in their house and the person who talked was his brother/father/somebody else IN their house..as i heard the voice, i suddenly stopped singing..*silence*then i asked dale..

"ui sino un??"

dale answered that he doesn't know..i thought he was playing a joke, so i remained silent, not knowing how to react..all the while i thought dale was really joking me..the voice came again..

"ui anong nangyari?kanta ka pa.."

it's really freaky..then i heard continuous beeping..[you know what i mean..].......dale put down his receiver...after a couple of seconds, i put mine down too..then dale called again..this time, i realized that dale was not playing a joke or anything..he really doesn't know..he put his receiver down so that we'll never hear the voice again..

actually, after some time thinking, i realize that it could be not freaky...i think our phone line was just being tapped/entagled..or whatever you call that..to a certain other line in our condominium...but somehow, its kind of creepy...and i'm not sure of that entagled thing..

whoo..i found a new sister! =)

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Saturday, November 18, 2006
yesterday, i was a total failure.. i think that every thing that i did yesterday was a failure.. i myself am a failure..

the day started okay. i was able to attend the flag ceremony.. first period is free time. after that was our physics..i don't know any lesson so i wasn't able to answer the exercises given.. good thing that we were not able to check it.. argh..i don't want to enumerate everything here, its hard to do..

to be a senior is full of surprises that i don't want to have..of all my years in studying, this is my first year to think of my grades seriously. teachers are very inconsiderate sometimes.i am a total failure..

i think i wasn't able to help them a lot..it's really nakakahiya..they trusted me to help them, but then i think that i wasn't able to fulfill my duty..hai..i am a failure..arrrgh..

urey...its really appalling to realize that i miss these people...its our reunion yesterday. i was able to go there at 5:45..good thing that they were still there..its really fun to be with these guys again..secrets revealed..i thought that there would only be 10 people to come, but to my surprise, 20+ people went! its really amazing.. fourth year is really full of surprises..after two years, at last, urey had its reunion. unfortunately, not everybody was able to go.. don't worry, there will be a next time =)

yesterday, i was a failure..in the future, i hope that i won't be anymore...

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Thursday, November 16, 2006
whooooooo unity go lawrence!

haha i love this section..pagkaisahan natin ang physics! whoooo go go go!

group 6 pala ako..haha ngaun ko lang nalaman.. =)

at isa pa, wala pa akong alam na lesson ni isa! haha good luck na lang sakin..

go lawrence!

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Wednesday, November 15, 2006
physics..parang ayoko nang magphysics..

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nasimulan mo na ba ung sa physics mo?

hindi pa e...

ako na lang gagawa...journal naman namin e..wala kaming first subject. =)

talaga? o sige, thank you!

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demo namin kanina sa english..ang saya, parang ordinaryong araw lang xa..ang pinagkaiba nga lang, me mga laptop tapos me audience na mga teachers...ang saya, successful naman xa..

as usual ganun pa rin..

parang hindi na kami nagklase kanina..simula 8 excused na kami...so nagbake na lang muna kami sa TLE..tapos ung iba gumagawa nung sa physics nila... [swerte ko talaga.]

as usual ganun pa rin..

gusto kong sumama sa ymca, pero wala akong pera! wala akong mautangan..hai kawawa naman ako...last chance ko na tong makasama sa pesteng ymca na yan..nung second year, pinipilit akong sumama..nung third year din...ngaun naman, ako na mismo pumipilit sa sarili kong sumama..pero nakakaasar..kung kelan 4th year saka naman ako nawalan ng pagkukunan ng pera...nung second year meron naman jan sa tabi-tabi..tapos nung third year pwede raw akong pautangin ni luis..tas ngayon, walang pwede..nakakaasar..

sa friday na ang deadline ng bayaran, at wala pa rin akong nakukuhanan...good luck na lang sakin..

as usual ganun pa rin...

bukas daw ititreat na kami ni mam sabado..whooo ice cream-cake saya!! nakakamiss ung cake, ung ice cream kasi nakakain na ako matagal na..kahapon ata?sa mcdo..uu tama kahapon nga..

kanina sa auditorium nung malapit nang magstart..ung mga tao nasa audi na rin..tapos kami nasa respective places na namin..sabi ni sir victorio magpatugtog daw muna to lighten up the tension..whoo tension daw..haha..tapos anubayan pinatugtog ung No Ordinary Love.. grabe ha..senti pa..tas mai mga naaalala pa ang mga tao..ahaha nainis tuloy ako..

opkors.kaw pa.Ü

ang dami ko pang poproblemahin...kawawa naman ako.hahaha!

as usual ganun pa rin..

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Tuesday, November 14, 2006
wala na talaga akong maitatago sa mendel..haha iba talaga mendel..alam lahat!

tambay kami kanina sa mcdo..ako, chad, cha, leo, nica, bea, yani, nino, mikhail, gaux, ac.. kwentuhan kami kung anu-ano.. nakakatuwa nga e..nung nasa school pa lang, galing lawrence sa auditorium..tapos si iric pinaalala pa sakin, kaya depressed na ang drama..haha..tapos pagbaba nawala pa ung pattern para sa physics..so ansaklap ko na talaga kanina...tapos biglang nagkumpulan sila chad, etc sa mai main...tapos asaran, ung mga grudge daw pagbabatiin..haha..nakakatuwa talaga..tapos aion..alam rin pala nila...hmm..bakit kaia?sinong nagsabi? hahaha! =)

tas aion..nakakatuwa talaga..hindi pa nakuntento [si rachelle umuwi na..], dumiretso naman kami sa mcdo, kasi magsasara na ang masci [tindahan?!] kaya aion tuloy ang kwentuhan..nakakatuwa talaga, wala kasi akong maililihim sa mendel..pero owki lang..mapagkakatiwalaan naman sila..excited na ako sa december..nakakamiss talaga!

hmm..so aion past 7 na kami nakauwi...sabay ulit kami ni mikhail umuwi...so aion daldal na naman ako to the highest level..as in pagkasakay kwento na agad tungkol dun sa katakut na nangyayari sakin ngaun...feeling close kasi..hindi naman?! sabi ni mikhail mai sira na raw..haha..may gusto raw..kadiri! hahaha! tapos kung anu-ano na naman ang kwinento ko kai mikhail..napatunayan ko kanina na "girls really talk too much"

ang daldal ko pala..haha

wala ka bang balak sabihin sa kania?
ang alin?
un..ung ano..
alin?ung f-e-e-l-i-n-g-s?
uu..
wala..ewan ko..

bakit ko naman sasabihin? ayoko ngang magmukhang tanga! hahaha! =)

hanggang dito na lang...ang saya talaga ngaun..salamat sa mendel! kala ko naman madrama akong uuwi...haha! =)

- MY LIFE STORY -

Sunday, November 12, 2006
i finished my first artifact for the third quarter..here is an excerpt [whoo andrama lalim..haha]:

Libre lamang ang mangarap. Lahat ng tao, may kani-kaniyang gustong makamit sa buhay. Kadalasan, ang mga pangarap ng mga tao ang nagdadala sa kanila sa kanilang hinaharap - maganda man o hindi.

Masarap ang pakiramdam ng nakatutulong ka sa iba. Mas masaya pa ito kaysa sa magkaroon ka pa ng maraming kayamanan. Ang mga pangarap ang nagbibigay sa atin ng dahilan upang magpatuloy sa ating buhay. Alam kong ang aking pangarap na maging isang doktor ang makapagbibigay ng kaligayahan at kaginhawaan sa akin at sa mga tao sa aking paligid, ngunit kailangan ko ring magsikap na matupad ito. Hindi masama ang mangarap. Mahirap ang umasa.


- MY LIFE STORY -

second place! ang saya! 20,000 pesos men..whooo!

yesterday, i thought it would be a boring and at the same time, a day full of tension. we should be in school at exactly 9:00 am. i had to wake up early, just like during ordinary school days, if i don't want to be scolded.haha. i planned to wake up at 6am, but because of the stress the other day, woke up at already 7am.

the night before yesterday, as i was about to go to sleep, i was delighted that dale texted me good luck, for i thought that nobody would tell me that. i am really grateful to have dale as my close friend, for he knows all the hardships i am currently encountering at school. he's a person full of words of encouragement.. haha.. unlike

anyway, yesterday morning, as i have said, i woke up at 7am, prepared my bag and the rest of the things to be prepared.at 7:30am, luis texted me good luck too. whoo another reason to be confident in winning this contest. awhile later, cean texted me too. nice one =)

i left the house with my mom [she will go to meralco to pay our bill]. just as we were at osmena highway, the jeepney we were riding had a problem - it was like the engine is not working, or something like that. it lasted for about 3 sets of stoplights [if you know what i mean..] and its getting on my nerves for it was already past 8. i don't want to be late! my mother asked the driver if we could get our money back, but he just snapped at us that we should just wait.

after some minutes, the driver got back on his senses and realized his mistake. haha. we took our money and transferred to another jeepney. i arrived at school at 8:30.

i thought that there are already many people at school, but i was wrong. haha. i was the fourth person to come after karl, maki, and jayvee. to save time, mam carlos already worked on my hair.

then ron came. haha. as always, i told him my insights and the things that made me happ. he said that i was crazy, but oh well.he will never understand. he's already happy to understand anything. =)

the rest of the choir members came one by one, and make-up thingy came next. i am not accustomed to wearing make up, so i was bothered when i had it on. i really hate wearing heavy make-up.

so go go go na sa eac! it was really shameful [haha] to walk alongside taft avenue with make-up and costume. argh. good thing that it lasted for quite some time only.

when we came to eac's main auditorium, my sister was already there. we took our seats, we prayed, we practiced, we observed other people, we acted like a refined student [whoa], we realized that we'll be the 8th to perform, we received booklets of some sort.. [whatever].. and the contest began.

after our performance was break time. as we went down the stage, students along the aisle asked what our school was and of course we're proud to say "maSci". oops..Manila Science High School, i mean. then of course after the break the other schools performed.

so that's what happened. we bagged the second prize, taking with us 20,000 pesos. this is a very unforgettable experience! =)

- MY LIFE STORY -

Friday, November 03, 2006
warning: intense stupidity ahead..stop reading if you don't want to be stupid too...

wala lang tong post na ito... sana sa mga may lakas loob magbasa nito, e magbasa na lang..wag nang magsalita..tenkyu.

ako?aaminin ko..madalas, wala akong isang salita..hanggang salita lang naman ako e..hanggang plano lang..walang execution..pero sa oras na ito, sa pagkakataong ito, pipilitin kong gawin ang aking mga pinaplano, dahil alam kong un lang ang tanging paraan upang makalimot at makaiwas sa problema..makaiwas..OO..iiwas ako..duwag ba? oo duwag ako..pero gaya nga ng sinabi ko kai philippe nung picnic ng mendel,

"ano pa nga ba ang magagawa ko?"

*bibili ako ng bagong filecase at tatagain ko ng mga pictures ni Kenshin Himura!

babalik na ako sa pagkaadik ko sa kanya..dun naman nagsimula ang buhay ko nung third year e..napag-isip isip ko kasi, pag sa totoong tao, whoo walang mangyayari..kaya sa anime na lang..ahahaha..kaso lang, ewan ko ba...biglang nagbago ang ihip ng hangin nung third year..nakilala ko si ganito..tapos si ano...tapos si ano rin..tsaka si ano rin...hmm..pati nga pala si ano..tsaka si ano..tsaka si ano..si ano tsaka si ano...ahahahaha joke =)

naku kung alam mo lang...haha as if naman na mababasa mo to..mai narinig akong kanta...nakuuuuuuuu nakakainis talaga....so pinindot ko ung next button...haiiii nakakainis din ung sumunod na kanta...grrrrr......

kenshin kenshin kenshin kenshin kenshin kenshin

akala ko owki na..haha akala lang pala ang lahat..nakakaasar kasi e..maxado kang papansin..gaya nga ng sinasabi ni mam carlos, lulubog lilitaw sa *** ng kalabaw..wag kang mag-alala mas cute si kenshin sau..hahaha..whoo himura..

so anong feeling mo? mai kapa-kapatid ka pang nalalaman jan..e pati ikaw nawawalan na rin ng oras sakin..samin..bakit ba ganun kayo?ano bang meron sakin? lahat na lang kayo, nang-iiwan..parang ung mundo mo umiikot na lang sa kania eh..haha wish ko lang talaga nababasa mo to..mahirap kasing sabihin sa personal..duwag kasi ako..kaia mo pala sinasabi sakin na matapang ako..kasi pati ikaw balang araw iiwan na rin ako..sige magsama na kayo..ako? owki lang ako...ganun naman lagi ang papel ko sa nobelang ito e..ako ung tagasalo ng problema, ako ung tagaintindi, ako ung iniiwan, ako rin ung masama...ako ung nalilito, ako ung nilalayuan...sanay na ako..pero xempre nakakapagod..pero wag kaung mag-alala, sanay na ako..

matagal ko nang alam na maraming namamatay at napapahamak sa maling akala..pero ganun talaga ako e, hindi natututo...patuloy akong umaasa...mahirap naman kasing pigilin un e..akala ko nun, anjan ka lagi...mali, erase erase..anjan ka lagi para sakin, alam ko un..pero siguro ang nangyayari rin sau, puro salita, walang execution..lalo na pagdating sa kania..xempre priority diba? sabi nga nila nung third year diba, love over friendship ka?

hindi talaga kita maintindihan...ano ba talagang gusto mo?nakakagulat ka minsan e..hindi ko tuloy maintindihan kung anong itatawag sau..kaibigan ba o acquaintance lang..kasi naman..isang araw ganito ka..sa susunod na linggo ganito naman...makalipas ang ilang buwan ganun na naman ulit..ano ba? pwede bang sabihin mo sakin nang diretsahan nang hindi na ako nag-iisip?

*ngingiti ako lagi...para makadagdag sa pagbabago ko..

oo, plastic ba? okay lang un..at least sarili ko lang ang pinaplastic ko at hindi ang ibang tao...tsaka, pansamantala lang to...mga siguro lima o anim na buwan lang...

ano pa bang gusto kong sabihin sau? hmm..basta, kahit anong mangyari, andito ako lagi para sayo..paninindigan ko ang ipinangako ko..sana ikaw rin..kapatid..

madali lang pala ang umiwas..liliko ka lang..o kaya iibahin mo lang nang kaunti ang angle ng lalakarin mo..whoo iwas na un to the max..alam kong mai gusto kang sabihin e..hindi ko lang alam kung ano ung nagpipigil saung sabihin un...pero wag kang mag-alala, alam ko na un...

ayokong gawin ang mga kalokohang to...pero xempre, depende na rin un sa mga gagawin mo..wag kang mag-alala, hindi naman kita pipilitin eh..ako na lang ang bahalang mag-adjust...gusto ko lang kasing bumalik sa dati ang lhat...un lang, mahirap ba un?

siguro nga..........mahirap

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Wednesday, November 01, 2006
ang tagal nung huling post ko ah..hmm

may pasok na ulit..hehe..pero hindi ako maxadong nakapagpahinga nung sem break..practice dito, practice don..nung monday, picnic ng mendel. nung tuesday, practice ng SBM..nung wednesday, practice ng school choir tapos dugtong..nung thursday practice ulit ng school choir..nung friday naman practice naman ng school choir ulit tapos SBM..tapos sabado kakanta kami sa mai adamson university..arrrrgh..sunday hindi na kami pumunta sa paco park para magsimba..tutal naman pagkahapon magmimisa rin kami sa pandacan church..nung sunday rin mai practice ulit ang dugtong simula 2:00 pm tapos diretso misa na..mga 7 na ako nakauwi..haha..musta naman..lagi pa akong puyat!

buti na lang nakagawa na ako ng formal theme sa english nung saturday..funmath na lang ang kulang..hindi ko kasi macontact ang aking mga butihing groupmates..

so pasukan na! ai uu nga pala..si mama nasa davao..pumunta xa dun nung sabado nang madaling araw..namatay na kasi si tatay poling, ung asawa ng kapatid nia..haai..

ulitin ko..so pasukan na! nung monday whoo ang lakas pa ng ulan..nagising na ako mga 6:30..ahaha wala kasi si mama at mejo malamig pa..haha..kaya aion, mejo panic pa ako, kasi late na nga tapos ang lakas lakas pa ng ulan..so bangon agad ako ligo agad bihis bihis..mas nagpanic pa ako nung naalala kong hindi pa pala nakaayos ung bag ko..pero mejo owki na kasi buong araw practice lang naman ULIT kami ng choir, kaya pe uniform lang ang kelangang dalhin..tapos habang naghahanda ako binuksan ng tatay ko ung radyo..pero hindi na ako nakinig..wala na akong paki kung mai pasok o wala..ahaha..tsaka ang alam ko talaga me pasok..

nung paalis na ako, sabi ng tatay ko wala raw pasok..sabi raw sa radyo..ako mejo duda..kasi wala naman akong narinig..so nag-online pa ako baka sakaling me online na mascian na pwedeng magconfirm kung walang pasok. [wala kasi kaming tv..nasira..kainis..] pagkaonline ko nakita ko si allan online din with matching status pa na "sabi kasi ni edward NO CLASSES TOMORROW..hehe" so ako kinabahan na kasi 7:00 na nun...parang wala nang pag-asang makahabol..tapos tinanong ko xa kung me pasok..sabi nia uu, bakit wala pa raw ako sa skul..waaaa so aion confirmed na ang ikinakaba ko..

kaia aion mejo asar pa ko sa tatay ko kasi nga talkshit pala xa..tapos ung mga tinext ko hindi naman nagreply..walangya..[maliban ke cean]tapos alis agad ako tapos sakay na lang ng tricycle para mas mabilis [kahit mas mahal..amf]...tapos nakakaasar kasi mejo malayu-layo pa ako sa sakayan biglang may humarang na sasakyan sa daan..taena mas lalo akong malalate nian e! asar talaga..pero hindi na ako nagreact violently,pangit kasi un..tahimik na lang ako tapos nagdasal.. hai..grabe tlaga..nawarak pa ung payong ko..edi mas lalo akong natagalan..asar talaga nung monday..nabutasan ako ng 26 pesos pamasahe pa lang papuntang skul..

pagdating sa skul wala akong makitang lawrence na babae..akala ko anjan si maam quintal.ung mga boys obvious naman na anjan si sir bangayan..tapos un pala wala si mam quintal, pakalat kalat lang ang lawrence..ako dun na lang sumama sa mga einstein na choir..tambay kami sa may gate papuntang audi sa may second floor..so aion practice practice whole day..

minsan lang kita iibigin...dahil ang minsan ay magpakailanman..

hmm...wala namang maxadong nangyari sa mga klase namin...nagcheck..naglesson..nag-aral..tumambay dahil walang teacher..hmm..pero mai test sa huma! argh..periodic test pa ui..hai..kainis..

after practice inaya ako nila nica na gumala...so xempre go naman ako..kahit walang pera..so aion hintay hintay muna kami dahil sabi ni nica sasama raw si aby...habang naghihintay magkakausap kami nila cha gaux at luis..so sabi nia me dengue raw si jarold..so ako naman gulat kasi of all people si jarold pa ang kakagatin ng lamok..tapos nakakatawa kasi tumawa lang si luis..un pala natawa xa dahil hindi ko rin alam...tapos aion hindi na namin nakita si aby at sabi ni nica na go go go na kami sa rob..so aion xempre daldalan habang naglalakad...pagdating namin sa rob sa mai jollibee ground floor nakita namin pababa ng escalator si nino at llamas magkasama..ahaha nagbilliards silang dalawa..hmm rich kids ah..alam na..ahaha joke =)

nung tuesday naman ganun pa rin ang mga nangyari..tambay sa audi..practice..luckily dumating si Father..whoo para na kaming nagvovoice lessons nang libre..bukod dun sa mga pinapagawa ni maam carlos samin na higa, tihaya, lagay ng libro sa tapat ng diaphragm, at kulang na lang e gumulung-gulong kami sa sahig, aion me libreng lessons pa ke father..ang dami naming natutunan tsaka malaki rin ang pinagbago!wahaha =)

matapos namin pasadahan ang contest piece, e nagsimula na kaming mag-aral ng bagong piyesa..kaso lang hmph ang hirap pag-aralan..sinuggest ni maam na ung isa na lang ung kantahin namin..ung mai legato ata un..or something..basta aion..sabi ni maam kahit kaming dalawa na lang ni "little sister" suzanne [ahahaha] ang kumanta ng part na un...e wala si suzanne nung tuesday, kaya ako na lang muna ung pinagexperimentuhan ni father..haru abot ko pala ang nota..nakakagulat..

so aion sa mga klase naman magkakasummative daw sa susunod na meeting sa soxal..nagtest sila sa english [hmph puro test], lesson, lesson at lesson..hai...kaya minsan ayoko ring magkaextra curricular activities e..mahirap makamiss ng araw sa klase..

after ng practice di ko alam gagawin ko..tapos nakasalubong ko si aia hinahanap nia sakin si nica..sabi ko basta andun somewhere..tapos nabanggit nia kelangan daw nilang bumili ng fruits..sabi ko naman [mukha akong tanga] "ai uu nga pala mai misa sa praydey."

hmph..hindi pala para sa misa..para pala ke jarold..ahaha pahiya nakakainis..tapos aion naalala ko me dengue nga pala xa..tapos tinanong ko sabi nila uu,pupunta sila ngaun..so ako naman bigla kong naisip na pumunta na rin, kasi wala nang ibang time kung mag-inarte pa ako...hindi ko inisip kung sinong kasama, kung mai mga close ba ako dun or what..basta bigla na lang akong go..so aion...sabi ni nica mga 5 pa raw aalis kasi hihintayin pa raw si jonas..sabi ni aby hindi na raw makakasama si yani kasi masama ung pakiramdam.. isa pa un, buntis daw ahaha feel na feel pa nia.. aion..

anyway so undas na..mejo inaallergy pa ako nung gumising ako kanina..hai..kaya aion wala akong ibang magagawa kundi ang uminom ng gamot..nagpahinga ako...bumawi sa tulog dahil gaya nga ng nasabi ko, hindi maxadong relaxing ang sem break at ang mga nakaraang araw..preo oh well, paggising ko me allergy pa rin..dala na rin siguro ng stress..

bumangon na ako mga tanghali na..sabi kasi ni papa after lunch na lang daw kami pupunta..tatapusin pa raw kasi nia ung pagpipintura..hmm..naalala ko ung mga previous undas..lagi kaming maaga pupunta dun, marami kasing dahilan:
- marami pa ung mga tumutulong sa tatay ko magpintura sa sementeryo
- andito si mama nun [nasa davao kase xa ngaun..]
- mrami kasi kaming pupunta..e mababagal ang kilos..e kung magpapatanghali pa kami, ano na lang ang aabutan namin sa sementeryo?

kaia aion, ang pumunta lang sa sementeryo ai ako, ate vita, pamangkin kong si dana, si papa, si ate vanessa at ang dalawa niang bulinggit, si carl at boki...nagluto si ate mabet [vita] ng ginataang halu-halo para baon namin sa sementeryo, tubig at nagpabili rin ng yelo si papa..tapos ako nagdala ako ng tubig kong sarili..para mas madaling uminom..tapos bago dumiretso sa sementeryo daan muna kami ng grocery, bibili ng plastic cups at disposable spoons..tapos bili na rin ako ng konting snacks, mentos na sugar-free pati nung tikoy na munggo na mukhang masarap..ahaha..

so aion diretso na kaming sementeryo...mejo malayo ung place kung san kami nagpark kasi bawal tsaka mraming tao...uu maraming tao sobra..kung ordinaryong araw lang kanina, kahit pa mejo mabigat ung dala ko hindi ako pagpapawisan nang sobra-sobra..pero kasi marami talagang tao..kaia dagdag sa init..so aion, pagpasok sa me gate malayo pa rin ung lalakarin namin kasi malayu-layo pa rin ung kinatitirikan ng mga labi ng mahal namin sa buhay =)

pagdating dun sa basta dun kung san man un..dasal muna kami..rosary..tapos aion kainan na..xempre inuna ung ginataan kasi baka mawalan na ng gana pag kumain nung mga snacks..aion..tapos pagkakain kinausap ko si ate nina at ate janjan..pati na rin si kuya raymond at baby angel...

haha nakakatawa kasi napakainit ng ulo ko kanina..ewan ko ba..nakakaawa nga sila bokbok e..sila ung natatarayan ko kanina..konting kibot lang..aian mainit na ulo ko..ewan ko ba..

naalala ko ung sermon nung pari sa pandacan church nung sunday..sabi nia ang november one daw e araw para sa mga patay, at hindi para sa mga buhay.. ang nangyayari raw kasi, pag sinasabing "november one," ang pumapasok agad sa isip natin "whoo holiday! yehey!" tapos ang tendency, ang araw na ito ay ginugunita natin para sa ating mga sarili...pumupunta nga tau sa sementeryo, pero anong ginagawa natin dun?mai dala tayong pagkarami-raming pagkain para magsaya tayo..nagdadala tayo ng pagka-lakas lakas na radyo..pero hindi man lang daw tayo nakakapagbaon ng panalangin para sa mga ipinupunta natin dun...

kanina, inobserbahan ko ang paligid..ang mga tao sa Manila South Cemetery..hindi naman lahat ganun...meron pa rin namang alam kung ano talaga ang kanilang pakay sa pagpunta sa sementeryo..ang totoong ibig sabihin ng undas..un nga lang, mejo sinasamantala ng mga negosyante..merong istante ng ano dito, meron ng ano dian...meron ding ganito dun sa banda rito..meron namang isa pa dun sa banda rian..pero kung iisipin natin, ganian talaga ang buhay..tsaka mai silbi rin naman ang mga istanteng un eh..para dun sa mga "rich kids"...e dun na lang sila bibili ng pagkain at inumin...

pagdating sa bahay natulog ako kaagad..dahil hindi pa ako panatag sa aking dinaramdam na sakit..tulog na ako mga 7:30 pa lang..aion...sige..sana'y naenjoy ninyo ang inyong holiday =)

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

ako si mani..bakit mani? kasi masarap ako! haha (what the hell does that mean?) anyway, you found me, that's what's important..sabi sau e..hindi ako mahirap hanapin ^_^ thanks for bothering looking for me..even though i'm a mere nut only..thank you! i really appreciate your effort..

i want to be revitalized..i want to start anew..i'm getting tired of doing things that will seem to have no good outcome..i want to take back my pride, my dignity..

for those who have been hurt because of me, my actions, and my big mouth, i am very sorry..i know my faults, and i really want to make up for the mistakes that i have done..i have done my best and exerted a lot of effort..but to no avail. i have done my part and i think it is time to give myself a break..

please don't get me wrong..i am still here and is patiently waiting..but i guess i just have to let things be carried by the wind..i realized that sometimes, i really will not be able to control things..

and for those FEW people who could understand me and is always there beside me, thank you. i really thank you for being very patient to me..i just hope that you will never leave and will always be my friends.. =)

this is mani..and i hope you'll enjoy my new boring blog..haha XD

.lab ku.

tubig
sunlight
minerals
God
luis ^_^
green and yellow

.yak.

cockroaches
traffic jams
back stabbers
people pretending to be a somebody

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| leslie |

siTes
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| my friendsTer acc0unt | his friendsTer acc0unt |
| quizzes | skin | fanfiction | masci f0rum |

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MISS YOU

everyday and every night
this feeling i'd fight
try as i might but i won't win
i surrender, i'd die
you are winning here alright

every morning when the sun
would shine on me
i'd flash a smile but deep inside
i feel so sad and lonely
I NEED YOU HERE AND NOW

i miss you
it's crazy to pretend that
i don't think of you
the more this feeling
just seems to grow and grow

i miss you
oh how much longer can i hold on to?
maybe you can come and tell me
that you miss me too =)

miss you..

all i want is for this love
to last forever
you walked away, never came back
oh i tried to recover
i can't bear it boy alright

when i hear a song
that we had used to share
i try as might to hide the tears
and when the pain is over
i wish that you are near