.my life.

Monday, December 25, 2006

okay..let's make this a little brief..got a little time to post here..when was the last time?ok, december 17..so lets start with

december 18:
school.. attended classes hmm lets see..till math period i think..then practice practice super practice..elimination rounds for baywalk contest was to start at 5pm..had make-up on..i hate make-up..its artificial, sabi nga ni alyssa...anyway..i was appalled with the support mascians showed there, especially lawrence..touching..whoo..and of course the people who texted me good luck or God bless...i was with celiz the whole time..there were 17 contestants and we were the 8th to perform..after all the contestants sang, the judges of course computed for the final scores..during the interval, students performed on stage, on the spot..the heck, its really annoying..got hungry...so celiz and i went to chowking and bought chao fan..when we came back, it was already finished and people are going to different directions to go home..when we asked mam sabalsa what the results were, she told us.. "tinatanong pa ba yan?edi xempre rank1 tau.." i had a little worried feeling for its already past 10pm and i had no one to accompany me in my journey going home..celiz was worried too but of course i had to be brave..nothing will happen to me anyway.. =)

december 19;
we were allowed to go to school at 10 am, due to the late contest the previous day..so i arrived at school around 10:30..celiz wasn't able to go to school, because her brother hmm..let's say he "shared" his blessings to her..so they were both home..i attended math period until english then practice again..i was not in the mood and i was annoyed because the people in the auditorium were just relaxing and sleeping when in fact, they should be practicing na..anyway, what can i do?i have no authority and i couldn't blame them for i admit, its really tiring..the hard work and all..so practice practice practice again..then went home..

december 20:
was this day special?maybe it should be, if things were not....whatever..anyway..hmm..i can't remember anything..wait..i remember..whole day practice..but still i attended my tle class..took a stupid test wherein i wasn't prepared..oh no..bagsakan na.. >_< then practice practice practice..sopranos were a mess, according to maam..in the jingle bells calypso..i wasn't really in the mood to give everything..oh, and by the way, celiz was at school already! this time, i had colds as well..so we both have sipon na..*cough* *cough* *sneeeeze* practiced rizal...costumes on..the NCR people were there again, of course to criticize our work..then maam carlos told me to sing the nanay part...then boom i was the nanay na..arg..i love acting but acting hates me..i'm not good in acting..mukha ba akong nanay?! after practice, i was in a panic to buy my exchange gift for the next day..takas muna sa audi to go to dale to ask advice kasi 6pm na rin un..sabi nia anything daw..perfume blah blah..thanks for the help, anyway..good thing erick was there..so i had the idea to buy pillow..thanks too, erick! =) went to rob together with ron and nathaniel [thanks too guys!]..bought the pillow..ate at kfc..saw a lot of mascians..my sister texted me to buy something for her baby..so ron accompanied me at mercury while nathaniel went to la salle, i don't know why..hmm..talking moments with ron..shared secrets..and of course, as usual, he's a very good secret-keeper..and he really doesn't answer all my questions..went home around 8:30, i guess..

december 21
woke up late, went to school late..and its nakakahiya kasi i brought no gifts, except of course for VERY FEW PEOPLE...panic mode..i still have to buy drinks [toka toka..] so aion..then nagpabili ng water sa mercury drug..the heck..nabutasan din ako in fairness..pero its okay..di na ako maniningil..christmas party time! newspaper dance with dale..nice pair haha..pero patalo na lang kami agad kasi i wasn't in the mood..received many gifts..its funny because philippe's and rachelle's gifts were the same..as in super identical! tas with matching sulat pa..nakakaiyak in fairness..naiyak talaga ako..tas pagbalik sa classroom kunwari walang nangyari..wahehe pahid pahid luha.. T_T borrowed an umbrella for it was raining..then i was really about to go home na because i had no money..but nica insisted and she told me that she'll answer my transpo..so i had nothing else to do but to go..nakakahiya sa lawrence.nakita pa naman nila ako sa moa..pero wala na kasi talaga akong pera e.! sori talaga..went home late..nakakapagod..then today was the first day of our hanapbuhay..i had to go home early so that we'll be able to sing in many houses..collected 684 pesos only..for we started late already [8:30 pm.]..slept super late..

december 22
woke up with allergies..maybe due to the stress and pressure i was having..texted ron to tell maam that i will be late..prepared myself in spite of the uncomfortable feeling..arrived at school around almost 11 i think..practice practice...first day to be the nanay..arg nakakahiya sa NCR..i'm really not good in acting..if i wud only dub the character's singing voice, its fine..but to act on-stage?! oh no no no...then had our break at 12:30..went to rob with karl and miguel to buy a battery..there we saw ralph..after buying my celphone batt, we accompanied ralph at bead shop..then around 1:20 ate at chowking..we were rushing so much for call time was at 1:30..celiz wasn't able to go because she's still sick..arg its all luis' fault..haha joke..anyway..came back at 1:45..o diba we're superheroes na..then bihis bihis na..make-up again..arg..then went to baywalk for the final competition..this time, my mother, ate vita, ate vanessa, resty, dana, vincent and carl watched na, so i had no problem going home..of course we won first place..whoo!

december 23
let's skip this one first..

december 24
kanina to in fairness..woke up so early..i don't know why..maybe its because of the excitement of the realization..anyway...nothing much happened today..third day of our hanapbuhay..we earned 1,362.25 pesos..tha's a lotta money i know..so to sum all of our earnings, we got 3k+ and we received 1,077 pesos each.. $_$ haha.. =) we were really rushing..finished doing our jobs at 8pm [so early! we could've earned a lot more if it weren't for our church choir! >_<] ate a very quick lunch [maybe 5 spoons of rice only..] then changed clothes..i had to wear that high heels again the heck! arrived at PDC a little past 9..the mass was not boring as usual..we even watched a VTR about Sto.Nino de Pandacan, PDC's patron saint..then our choir sang in front of the people..we sang one of our songs last concert [that's why i had to wear that heels again, i realized..kakanta pala kami so dapat talaga suot ung isa sa mga costumes namin!] Pasko sa Langit Medley..i just hoped that the audience loved it..anyway it ended at 10:30..oh no we still had to go to Paco Park..para naman sa SBM choir..late na kami!woot! >_< took a taxi then rushed there..at Paco Park, they were already singing "Santo, santo, santo..." whooooooooo we're late! and there were so many people that we were like walking in an obstacle course..especially inside the very small chapel..siksikan! anyway, it ended at 11..after the mass, we had our meeting for SBM's christmas party on 29..naku..hindi rin pala ako makakasama..sayang! ung xchange gifts pa naman dun siguradong bongga dahil halos lahat ng members e mai trabaho na..argh sayang talaga! curse you rizal! whoo joke!

and today's december 25..merry christmas people! gotta go to bed..i'm sleepy! =)

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Saturday, December 23, 2006

today is so memorable..i had to answer his letter for i could think of no other ways to answer him..so yesterday i asked him if he was free today for i had to give him something..so aun he said uu raw..so solved na..

meeting time:10am
meeting place:masci..where it all started sabi pa nga ni celiz..

due to common reasons, meeting time was not followed..haha..i woke up late because of the stress from the contest last night, so aun..arrived at 11..before going in front of masci, went first to mercury drug to buy him a tissue..for his sipon..

at masci, marami palang tao..so kaba naman ako..pero i told myself na ano bang paki nila?e mai ibibigay lang naman ako e..so aun..there daldal daldal muna konti..tas i noticed that he's wearing it..whoo sweet..katouch...then went to rob..daldal ulit..ang dami naming pinagkwentuhan..sila philippe..ung concert..ung contests..then at rob, sinamahan ko muna xa sa bead shop tas aion...tapos daan blue magic tas papemelroti tapos gift gate na lang daw..wahehe..no choice na xa..hindi kasi ako marunong magregalo sa lolo lola kasi wala naman akong lolo lola dito sa maynila..then after niang bumili dun, sabi nia kain muna..tas sabi ko xa na lang magsabi kung san kakain..tas sabi nia wala raw xang alam..haha parang ong ong lang..tas sabi nia bahala na kung san man kmi mapadpad..tapos aion nalakbay na nmin hanggang 3rd floor..tas xempre 4th floor last storey na un..so aion sabi nia chowking na nga lang, so fine chowking na lang ulit..hehe parang dun lang din kami kumain nila ralph kahapon..tas sa chowking i was appalled to know na ililibre nia ako..

"anong kakainin mo?"

ang galing..haha..ililibre talaga nia ako..so aion..habang kumakain daldalan ulit..tas sabi nia sori.."bakit naman" "dhil dun"..tas ako naman kunwari dedma.."wag kang magagalit kai nica a..tsaka ke maton.." "bakit naman?" sabi ko wala lang..haha..hindi ko talaga alam kung sasabihin ko pa..pero wala lang, i felt na dapat niang malaman e..so sinabi ko na.."sinabi kasi ni nica sakin ung pinag-usapan nio sa mai main bldg.." so xa naman nagulat na nahiya na ewan ko ba parang sasabog na ang drama nia..haha.."wag kang magalit sa kania a..pinilit ko lang xa kaya nia nasabi sakin un.." so aion blah blah.hindi ko pa nabibigay ung sulat kaia wala pa xang alam..after eating akala ko uuwi na..nung andun na kami sa may 2nd floor ata un, biglang napansin niang wala xang dala na plastic..oh no naiwan nia ung binili nia sa gift gate sa chowking! so aun takbo takbo naman kami..pag nawala un lagot kami pareho..haha..so aun luckily andun pa si precious red plastic bag..so aun dapat uuwi na kami..sabi nia kung mamimili ba ako..e ako naman kasi alm kong matatagalan ako mamili kasi maghahanap pa ako dahil nga hindi ako prepared..so sabi ko baka babalik na lang ako kinabukasan para bumili..

"kung sakali, san ka bibili?"

"siguro dito rin sa rob, o kaya sm.."

"bakit, wala ka bang dalang pera?"

"meron.."

"ang kulit nito o..edi ngaun ka na lang bumili.."

so no choice naman ako edi fine..so on the spot akong nag-isip..buti na lang sapat ang dala kong pera..so aun daan kami powerbooks, blue magic..surplus..hmm.national bookstore..tas xempre daldalan pa rin..tapos after nun..

"gusto mo mag-gbox?"

"hmm..ok lang.. =)..ai naku..hindi ako magmamaniax..!"

"bkit naman?"

"pagtatawanan mo lang ako e!"

"oi hindi ah."

sbi nia namamangha raw xa samin kasi nafifeel daw nia ung powers namin pag malapit kami sa dance maniax machine..haha..kaya feeling din daw nia magaling na rin xa magmaniax o kaya magrevo..and the like..haha ang kulit talaga..

"o sige, pag nagmaniax ako, magmamaniax ka rin?"

"o sige ba=)"

pagdating sa gbox oh no nakita kami nila thea, jayv, at ung ibang mga journal people..played maniax with jayv..gaawd how i miss BDT! i hope everything's going back to the usual stuff we guys do together..aww..then aion laro laro kami..haha nahihilo na raw xa..ganun talaga sa umpisa..tas xempre dinamayan ko xa..nagmild na rin ako kahit pa kating kati na akong maglaro ng wild na afronova..haha..kru kru..so aion after maniax labas na kami ng gbox..paglabas sabi nia gusto pa raw nia maglaro kaia lang baka gusto ko na raw umuwi tsaka magsisimba pa raw kasi sila..so aion..palabas ng rob as usual kwentuhan na naman..ang dami niang tinatanong ang galing..hindi xa boring kasama..hehe..tapos nashare ko sa kanya na ang tagal tagal ko nang inaabangan ung happy feet kaso lang ngaung showing na xa biglang nwalan naman ako ng kasama manood dahil sila nica napanood na raw un..how sad..kadiri..hehe..nashare ko lang..tas aion..naglakad kami hanggang taft..tinanong nia ako kung pano ako naging "most outstanding candidate." haha candidate amf..baka delegate?! hehe..so aion..

pagdating sa taft sabi ko san xa..tas tinuro nia ung direksyon ng bus..duh..parang hindi ko alam..haha.."sige sa malvar pa kasi ako e.." "o edi samahan na kita..tara.."

"ai wait lang pala.." *sabay dukot sa bag*

"o akala ko ba hindi mo muna ibibigay ngaun?" [ung regalo ko ke celiz..]

"hindi..wala..me kinukuha lang ako.."

lakad lakad...pagdating sa malvar..

"jan ka na sasakay?"

"ha?a uu..uhm..o eto..hehe.."

"ha?a..salamat..ingat sa pag-uwi..salamat nang marami.."

"kaw rin..salamat..ingat ka pauwi..babay =)"

~~~hindi ko akalain..para kasing ang galing e..pang10 beses ko na xang nababasa pero parang ang galing talaga eh..~~~

oh well..magaling talaga..haha..padive dive kapa sa kama ha..whoo!

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Sunday, December 17, 2006

can't wait for march to come..somebody told me that to make things easier, it would be better if two people part ways..i guess he's right..

"si kuya, pinipilit ang sarili niang maniwala sa hindi totoo..si ate umaasa"

i don't know what to type here. honestly..forgive me for this senseless post..i just don't feel like posting something about the "concert." The only thing that i could say is that nica, ralph, celiz, nino, jayv, and luis watched it. many people bought tickets but only a few came..was that a bad sign?i guess so..sabi nga ni ate lai, its nakakatampo that few people came, hindi tuloy nakakainspire magperform..she's right..at least if many people came to watch, maybe we'll have the spirit to give our best, in spite of the boiling heads most of our members had before it started..during the performance, i have no glasses, so i couldn't see the audience. but when we came down the stage while singing one of our songs, i could feel that my friends were near my spot, but i still couldn't see them clearly...the heck..at least they were there, together with my mom and dana..thank you for your support! although you had been naughty last night... =)

bakit nga ba senti tau ngaun?nakakaasar kasi..

buntung hininga..
hindi makatulog..
nahihiya..
close kasi kami ni celiz..
hindi alam kung anong gagawin..
part ways..
march..
"hindi ah...wala un.."
"kahit last year?"
"hindi noh..kahit last year.."
baguio
necklace
america..
part ways..
celphone.
email.
college
march
"kelan birthday mo?"
"march5."
"teka, ako ba ung tinatanong mo?"
"haha.nauna pang sagutin ung tanong bago magtaka..uu ikaw!"
"kailangan ba sa contest?bakit, malas ba ang march5?"
"mai nagtatanong lang! haha i'll leave you hanging..isipin mo na lang na isang 'loyal fan' ang nagtatanong..haha!"
kendi lang ulit yun..
nothing special.
ASA
"maganda ba?"
"sobra."
AMERICA..

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Saturday, December 09, 2006

miss ko nang matulog nang mahimbing..kahit pa weekends ang daming gagawin...practice dito, practice doon, reunion dito bili doon waaa kaliwa't kanan...dapat ngaun sa bahay lang ako tatambay..natulog ako mejo late na kagabi...tapos nagising naman ako nang maaga so parang wala lang (mga 7:30)..tapos dapat tambay lang talaga ako sa bahay..napapagod na kasi talaga ako..gusto ko nang magpahinga! kaso lang si ron biglang nagtext hmph >_< asan daw ako..sabi ko nasa bahay..[duh..] so xempre being a pessimistic type of person naisip ko na galit na si mam carlos or something..tapos si nino nagtext na rin kung asan na raw ako..aaaaa! kakainis ang daming appointment..

so aion mga 10 nagluto ako ng maling at naisipan kong pumunta na lang sige..tapos nakakaasar kasi nahiwa pa ako ng pesteng can ng maling! hindi xa masakit kaso lng malalim kaya sa tingin ko maraming dugo ang nawala sakin..haha epal talaga nasugatan pa ako..akala ko kanina mamamatay na ako dahil sa wala na akong dugo..pero hindi pala..sayang..haha joke!

hmm..aion hindi ko pinakita sa people in the house ung sugat ko dahil ayokong ipakita sa kanila dahil mas magpapanic pa sila kesa sakin..kaya aion...hingi na lang ako ng piso ke mama [di ko sinabi kung para san..] tas ung daliri ko na nahiwa tinatago ko para hindi mapansin..kahit pa as of that time ang daming dugong nagfoflow galing sa sugat..tas diretso tindahan..nakakaasar ginto ata lahat ng tinda ni lola..2piso ba naman ung band aid! naisip ko..naku siguro kahit pa mamatay-matay na ung costumer nila dahil sa sugat pagpipilitan pa rin nilang 2piso ung band aid na un..ai naku.

so aion ang lalim talaga ng sugat..nung nahiwa ako sabi ko sa sarili ko "ai naku nasugatan ako.." akala ko mababaw lang tsaka konting daplis lang ung lid ng maling sakin..kaso mali ako..haha pagsilip ko sa sugat ko mejo kita ung loob..argh hindi naman ako nandiri o nahimatay, pero naisip ko rin na pano pa kaya ung mga nasasaksak?

so enough of that..nandidiri na siguro kau..so pagkabili ko ng band aid xempre nilagay ko na agad..hindi ko kasi alam kung anong gagawin pag malalim ung sugat e..nung una nga naisip ko na baka tahiin [kaya hindi ko rin pinakita sa mama ko..] kaya nung nilagay ko na ung band aid, mai red agad na dumikit dun sa parang pad na ewan sa band aid..hehe..red..

aion ung niluto kong maling binaon ko na lang dahil late na talaga ako...so aion pagdating ko sa masci akala ko walang tao..amf un pala lahat sila nasa quad..at ang choir..nasa stage! whooooo i'm late..tapos kakatapos lang nilang kantahin ung unang kanta, nagturuan na agad sila sa direction ko, tapos si mam carlos biglang lumingon..oops ok tinawag na ako..kadiri grand entrance daw sabi ni ron..tumatalbog daw ako! yaaaaak! so aion nakakainis wala pa ata kami sa tono...pero in fairness ang dami naming nakuhang pondo.. =)

lunch break na after [kung kelan kakatapos ko lang kainin ung baon ko..saka nag-lunch break..] so lakad lakad na lang muna kami ni bespren dale..kwento kwento..nagpaload..tapos si jonas kumanta sa stage ng bring me to life tas ung isang kanta hindi ko na maalala..

tas aion na dress rehearsal na..cute ung costume ko, kaso lang makati..hehe un lang..sana manalo kami..

mga 2:30 na natapos ung dress rehearsal, so pede pa akong makahabol sa mendel..wala akong kasama nun, si bea at yani nauna na..tapos si cm at philippe hindi raw makakasama..ok lonely mode na naman ako..luckily anjan si raphael, mai pag-asa pa akong magkaron ng kasama papuntang qc..kaso lang sabi ni raph natatakot daw xa sa nanay nia..hmph..so mag-isa na lang akong pumunta..

at proud akong sabihing nakarating ako dun nang mapayapa at buo!

nakarating na kami ng maynila mga 8..naku lagot ako pagdating ko sa bahay, mai practice pa kami! oh no..nung kakapasok ko pa lang ng gate ng condo namin, mai napansin akong kotse..hmm kamukha nung kotse namin...whoo kotse nga namin! nasa loob si ate, si ate at si kuya..so ako naman sakay na lang din..diretso na sa practice..wala man lang inom ng tubig dahil sobrang uhaw na ako o kaya kain man lang ng konti dahil nagugutom na rin ako nun...

natapos ung practice mga 10:30 na..hai naku wala na naman akong tulog..bukas dapat gigising nang maaga dhil mag-uumpisa ang practice sa pandacan nang 9am..tapos sabi ni kuya ranny attend daw kami ng misa sa paco park 11am un..takte..tapos meron pang play na panonoorin nang 2pm..xeeeeet ayoko na...gusto ko nang matulog! >_<

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Friday, December 08, 2006

napaka-epal..sana kung nag-ool ka man, matamaan ka!

una sa lahat, ano ba sa tingin nio ang ginagawa namin? naglalaro?! excuse me naman..kung kami rin naman ang papipiliin, mas gusto naming magklase nang makapagpahinga naman kami kahit konti..pare-pareho taung dehado dito kaya wag kaung magfifeeling importante..grabe ang babata nio pa lang sobrang crab na mga asal nio..maxado kaung sensitive..sana man lang naging open minded kau kahit pano..kung kelan umiyak saka kau magpapaka-anghel jan..kung kelan kau nilapitan saka kau tatahimik..ang duduwag nio! tapos sasabihin nio pa na bakit nila kailangang sabihin samin? haha excuse me hindi nila samin sinabi un..in the first place, kami ang nagtanong sa kanila..sa tingin nio ba napaka-insensitive namin para hindi magtanong kung bakit xa umiiyak? hindi kami katulad nio noh! EXCUSE ME...

sabi nio napahiya kau kanina..e bakit naman hindi? hindi kasi kau marunong umintindi...tas ito pa..nagpaturo pa kau ha..ang galing..alam nio bang bawal un?! ang galing talaga..kaya nga hindi ko na tinuloy turuan kau dahil bawal at nag-aalala ako sa inyo dahil sayang naman kung madi-disqualify kau..haha mga crab kau..akala ko pa naman ang batch ninyo e mababait..hindi pala..sobrang bait nio pala...

tandaan nio lang na JOKES ARE HALF MEANT..kahit pa sabihin nio samin na hindi nio talaga sinasadya un at joke lang un para sa inyo...hindi nio lang alam, subconsciously, un ang nararamdaman nio..at ung mga boys nio..talo pa ang bading kung magdrama..

ano, natatamaan ba kau? pasenxa na ha..naiinis lang kasi talaga ako sa nangyayari sa inyo..ayoko kasing nasasaktan ung mga mahal ko sa buhay...nakakahiya kau, nung second year kami, hindi ganian ang..sabi nga ni lousanne..nakakahiya kau..nakakahiya talaga..mga isip bata..sana naman nagpaka-mature kau kanina..

sige, awayin nio pa sila..kawawa kau..

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tama xa, pag inaway pa nila kau..o kaya nagparinig sabihin mo lang susugurin ko na talaga sila..grabe contagious ata ang pag-iyak..parang kahapon lang ako ung napahagulhol dahil sa ano..ehem..tapos kanina ikaw naman...pero owki lang un..gaya nga ng sabi ko..mahirap kung kinikimkim yan..bawal sa health..pero xempre mas maganda kung magkaka-ayos talaga kau..kasi isipin mo marami pang taon kau magsasama-sama..khit pa hindi kau maging magkakaklase..magkakabatch pa rin kau..tsaka mabigat sa loob magkaroon ng grudge at isipin na may nagkakagrudge sau..

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ang sarap sumakay ng pedicab..after so many years, at last nakasakay na akong muli! weeeee =)

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happy birthday nga pala sa aking kapatid na sobrang kamukha ko raw..haha ewan ko ba..hindi ko talaga makita ang resemblance namin sa isa't isa..sna naman maging negative ang resulta ng x-ray mo..bruha ka hindi biro ang TB ah..sige ingat palagi. [sana lang nababasa mo to..hahaha!] miss na kita..at ang camera mo.. =)

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hindi ko pa rin naibibigay..ang tanga kasi eh..nasa harap ko na..boing wala pa rin..haha leche nanginginig pa ung kamay ko sa loob ng bulsa ko..

next time na lang ulit..

_aKu_

- MY LIFE STORY -

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

i just came from our choir practice [pandacan] today. i wasn't really planning to post something today due to stress..but because i want to read her blog, i have to be online. and because royce tagged here in my site, i also had the inspiration to write something.

anyway, i'm really tired right now, but due to unknown explanations, i have the energy to post something.

about ymca, its soo boring to write my experiences alone. so i think now's the time to write something else than about experiences only. ymca lasted for 5 days, from november 29-december 3, and within that 5 days, i have experienced something worth remembering. it was a once-in-a-lifetime experience that nobody can take from me. honestly, i had a dilemma if i would really go join ymca. i wanted to join to forget, but i also hesitated because of the price.

but in the end, i paid the fee, and there was no turning back. i just thought that it's ok, because at least i would forget everything..that was my main purpose of joining ymca - to forget everything. but ymca helped me more than that.

as we were on our way to baguio. [oh and by the way, it was my first time to go to baguio and it was also my first time, and probably the last, to join ymca..] i really enjoyed the travel. at first i thought that i would feel out of place because people seated around me are those whom i'm not close to..[whatever >_<] anyway, i was wrong..it was hell a lot of fun and extremely memorable too! also, on the way, i had the mindset to have a "makapal na mukha" at baguio, so that i would be busy, to forget everything..

let's make this short..when we were already there, wednesday, it was already late so we just packed our things and went to bed..the next day, we first strolled around baguio city, bought things and took pictures..after lunch ymca started..i then belonged to commission 4..at 6:00 pm, i was officially our commission's chairperson..

i was happy that little by little i was doing my purpose in going there.. although he texted me thursday morning, as well as friday evening, it was nothing to me.. [ows?!] anyway..

as i was about to go to bed thursday evening, i realized that i have made a mistake..i realized that it was my first time to join ymca, and to be a chairperson in an instant?! pathetic..i didn't know what to do and i was afraid that i won't be able to do the things a leader must do..that time, i just thought that i should just sleep first and ponder over it the next morning..

friday morning, before breakfast, i was thinking of backing out as a chairperson..was that permitted? haha, i don't think so..i really pondered over it deeply, and i asked myself, 'can i really do it?'

after breakfast i realized that i should not be much of a coward to back out in such things. i should have confidence in myself and i have to get that award for a most outstanding delegate..i have to face challenges..

and that's what happened..i realized that i have made a mistake by promising something that 1.) i know i cannot fulfill no matter how i try and 2.) is usually made by a coward

now i know that we should face our problems, no matter how hard they can be..turning back is equivalent to cowardice..i know that i cannot do anything as of now, but will it hurt if i wait? i think no..so that is what i will do..wait until God knows when..its hard, but i'll take the risk..i just wish that he also will..

thank you YMCA..so much.. =)_

_aKu_

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Monday, December 04, 2006

hindi ako magpopost dito para sa ymca..hehe..tingnan nio na lang ung blog ng ibang jenergy pipol o kaya nung ibang nag-ymca ngaung 2006 para malaman ang detail..o kaya next time na ako magsusulat tungkol dun..[kung maalala ko pa.]

most outstanding delegate..

anyway..narito ako upang magsulat tungkol sa isang taong nakapukaw ng aking puso sapagkat nag-uumapaw ang kanyang kabaitan...noong nakaraang taon pa kami nagkakilala subalit ngayong taon lamang kami naging malapit sa isa't isa..sobrang bait nia sakin..at xempre ganun din ako sa kania..marami xang alam tungkol sakin..ewan ko ba..parang ang gaan ng loob ko pagdating sa kania...nasasabi ko lahat ng gusto kong sabihin..tas nakikinig naman xa kahit senseless ung sinasabi ko..haha..halos lahat ata ng sikreto ko ngaun alam na nia..

dati..hehe xempre ang lahat ay nagsisimula sa akala..akala ko nun napakasungit nia't hindi xa mahilig makihalubilo sa hindi nia ka-edaran..sa tuwing magkakasalubong kami dati..nagkaka-ilangan pang batiin ang isa't isa..pero xempre akala lang un...

nilapitan nia ako..xempre cute ako kaia kinausap ko rin xa..tapos aion dun na nagsimula ang lahat..kinuha nia ung celphone no. ko.. tapos text text..tapos aion na..tuluy-tuloy na..haha..kapatid ko na xa..ate na nia ako..ang galing! nakakatuwa =)

alam na nia talaga ang lahat..sobrang talino pa nia..top 1 ba naman?! so proud of you! go go go! ipagpatuloy hanggang sa paglaki! n_n

sabi ko..gusto ko nang umalis nang masci...dahil sa kaliwa't kanang problema...hindi na ako makapaghintay na dumating ang marso...pero dahil sa kanya..parang ayoko na..hehe...hati na ang desisyon..

zzZZ [inaantok na ako..]

ang laki talaga ng tiwala nia sakin..nakakatawa kasi ako ung napahiya nung nakuha ko ung award na hindi ko na inaasahan..tas xa ung natutuwa sobra..wahehe..kasi naniniwala xang kaya kong makamit un..minsan, nakatutuwang isipin na somewhere out there..sa laki ng mundong to..merong isang taong lubos na nagtitiwala sau at sa iyong kakayahan..napakasarap isipin na sa kabila ng mga problema, merong isa jang magbabalanse sa mga problemang un para pasiyahin ka..pero xempre pinakamasarap ung malaman mong mai nagmamahal pala sau =)

xempre, ako rin...may tiwala ako sau...wahehe..tsaka impt ka sakin [waiiiiiiiiii mushy mushy...hahaha pero totoo! XD]

_aKu_

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