grabe..antagal na mula nung huli kong post..hehe..
anyway, since its been a while since my last post, obviously, many things have happened in my life.. let's start with school..
high school life is already over. i won't be able to go to manila science as someone who is studying there, but as someone who was studying there.i will miss the moments i shared with my classmates and friends there.til now, im still wishing that i didn't graduate..im still wishing that the people i have been with in high school are still the people that i will be sharing my college life with. i will miss mendel, lawrence, alcaraz and urey..and of course choir..i have experienced many things when i..well, when mrs. carlos became the choir's adviser..i was also happy with the lower years who joined the choir..they were fun to be with..i had the chance to be with my little sister..
anyway..im still preparing myself for college and the things that await me..i just hope that i will be able to adjust fast to the new culture in college..i actually hate my schedule..i am to go to school everyday, with every monday's tuesday's thursday's and friday's dismissal at 4pm.i belong to block 2. actually there are also other mascians in my course but sad to say, none of them are that close to me so i think i will have a hard time adjusting. hmm..wednesdays are for pe and nstp so i hope the dismissal will be kind of early than usual.
without thinking properly, i went to quezon city last monday with ralph, pausiu, leslie and ph to audition in up singing ambassadors. iric and lousanne were already there so we just met them somewhere in up diliman. actually, it was not my plan to audition now. because i was thinking about the adjustment thing and i thought, that if im gonna commit myself to something as upsa, adjustment will be really hard for me..i will immediately have a hectic schedule and my time management is one of the things that im not so proud of. anyway, i still went the heck. bahala na.
we were all accepted and are to start training on june, the official opening of classes. im really doubtful if im ever gonna be responsible with this upsa..so i really have to think about this..i mean don't get me wrong, i really want to join..i mean, my talent will be developed im sure and singing is one of the things i do enjoy. but i really should be thinking of my priorities, right? im afraid that i'll flunk my subjects due to sleepless nights and tiresome days that will await me if ever im gonna continue this..and college is totally different from high school..besides..we have little time left..i have to make the best out of it.i want to focus on us..for the meantime i have to treasure every second left..
im not really excited going to college..funny, months ago i agree with mikhail that it would be fun if high school would be over.college.new life.new start.but now, i wish time stopped at some point during high school.i think, somehow, part of me doesn't want to grow up..
anyway, summer's been really busy..i had a job..gawd i had to wake up so early in the morning, like, 6 am just to go to this little "sideline" my sister, her boyfriend and I had which ended just last week.anyway, its alright, i was able to earn uh..a quite big amount of money. [although i know that the money will be gone from my hands sooner or later..haha]
we get to see each other every now and then..its really hard, especially in his part..anyway, not that im complaining, at least we get to see each other sometimes..its hard..being away from someone you love..and you could do nothing but to just wait..wait until the time that you can be with him forever..but im sure the long waiting and patience will pay off..
kinda mushy, huh?
anyway, i really don't want to talk about the friends part..i mean..i have friends..and i miss all of them a lot..especially my closest friends..i miss nino, nica, yani, maton, ph, cm, dale, and the rest of them..but i guess just a scar between you and a very close friend of yours really means a lot that it really hurts you..hurts you more than you can imagine..that you won't want to talk about friends anymore..haha..just a little piece of advice..if ever you had misunderstandings or tampuhan with your friend, especially a close friend..a very close friend that you treat him/her as a brother/sister, make sure that you will clear that mess up as soon as possible and don't let a week, even a day, pass by without making things clear..if you have the fault, apologize.don't let your pride get the best out of you.if you think you didn't do anything at all, talk to your friend and ask "what's the matter?"..that way, if ever you did something your not aware of..or you didn't mean to, you will be able to explain yourself..
i really regret doing that mistake..although apologies were already given to each other, there's something that tells me things won't be the same anymore..and im sad for that..i just hope that im wrong..
anyway..i think this post has enough drama for today..actually today's our family outing and here i am, in front of my bro's laptop, just in one of pansol's private pools, cold and freezing..with a lugubrious air that goes with the chilly weather..funny, we went swimming despite the fact that rainy season seems to be starting..
i really miss that girl..that girl who was once my sister and will always be my sister..i just hope that im a sister for her up to now..
"Si ate vanir lang nagpapaexcite ngaun. hehe =)"
"We were so hungry so Ate Vanir and I went to Chowking. Bonding moments"
"Buti na lang nanjan si Ate Vanir para i-calm down ako..."
yeah..seriously..
_aKu_
- MY LIFE STORY -
ako si mani..bakit mani? kasi masarap ako! haha (what the hell does that mean?) anyway, you found me, that's what's important..sabi sau e..hindi ako mahirap hanapin ^_^ thanks for bothering looking for me..even though i'm a mere nut only..thank you! i really appreciate your effort..
i want to be revitalized..i want to start anew..i'm getting tired of doing things that will seem to have no good outcome..i want to take back my pride, my dignity..
for those who have been hurt because of me, my actions, and my big mouth, i am very sorry..i know my faults, and i really want to make up for the mistakes that i have done..i have done my best and exerted a lot of effort..but to no avail. i have done my part and i think it is time to give myself a break..
please don't get me wrong..i am still here and is patiently waiting..but i guess i just have to let things be carried by the wind..i realized that sometimes, i really will not be able to control things..
and for those FEW people who could understand me and is always there beside me, thank you. i really thank you for being very patient to me..i just hope that you will never leave and will always be my friends.. =)
this is mani..and i hope you'll enjoy my new boring blog..haha XD
.lab ku.
tubig
sunlight
minerals
God
luis ^_^
green and yellow
.yak.
cockroaches
traffic jams
back stabbers
people pretending to be a somebody
