"chocolates will make you feel better.."

er..apparently not..

just days ago i was alone at home, watching Voyager..food was at scarcity these days so i was eating milo..yes..eating..i know it's pretty weird but i'm also sure that some of you out there tried that..you know..papak..yes..anyway..while i was watching a thought suddenly struck me..

"i am alone.."

nah..don't worry this won't be mushy..i just realized..just months ago my hands were getting tired of clicking keypads of my phone..i had somebody to talk to, whenever i want. but now, nobody's out there..nobody remembers..and really, that made me sad..i was alone at home..no one was there..

so chocolates don't necessarily make you happy..or feel any better..

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just awhile ago i saw two chickens, a female and a rooster, to be exact. and just a random thought occured to me..

i wish i were just like these chickens..carefree and they don't have to think of problems..damn problems..

er..on second thought, i don' want to be grilled..

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this is really weird..i soo hate nostalgia..i hate the feeling of being left out..desertion..i feel like i don't belong..i find it hard to fit in..and to make matters worse, i'm in a new environment..

this is gonna be a hell of a year for me..i swear..

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well..looks like only three people found my blog..anyway..thank you guys..it really made me happy..

^___^

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what a very boring entry.. oh..and by the way..
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just in case somebody will be kind enough to keep me company =)

_aKu_

ako si mani..bakit mani? kasi masarap ako! haha (what the hell does that mean?) anyway, you found me, that's what's important..sabi sau e..hindi ako mahirap hanapin ^_^ thanks for bothering looking for me..even though i'm a mere nut only..thank you! i really appreciate your effort..

i want to be revitalized..i want to start anew..i'm getting tired of doing things that will seem to have no good outcome..i want to take back my pride, my dignity..

for those who have been hurt because of me, my actions, and my big mouth, i am very sorry..i know my faults, and i really want to make up for the mistakes that i have done..i have done my best and exerted a lot of effort..but to no avail. i have done my part and i think it is time to give myself a break..

please don't get me wrong..i am still here and is patiently waiting..but i guess i just have to let things be carried by the wind..i realized that sometimes, i really will not be able to control things..

and for those FEW people who could understand me and is always there beside me, thank you. i really thank you for being very patient to me..i just hope that you will never leave and will always be my friends.. =)

this is mani..and i hope you'll enjoy my new boring blog..haha XD


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MISS YOU

everyday and every night
this feeling i'd fight
try as i might but i won't win
i surrender, i'd die
you are winning here alright

every morning when the sun
would shine on me
i'd flash a smile but deep inside
i feel so sad and lonely
I NEED YOU HERE AND NOW

i miss you
it's crazy to pretend that
i don't think of you
the more this feeling
just seems to grow and grow

i miss you
oh how much longer can i hold on to?
maybe you can come and tell me
that you miss me too =)

miss you..

all i want is for this love
to last forever
you walked away, never came back
oh i tried to recover
i can't bear it boy alright

when i hear a song
that we had used to share
i try as might to hide the tears
and when the pain is over
i wish that you are near