the place was beautiful, clean, and relaxing. although the place looks different, she knew that it was her previous school, judging from the people she could see. it was near the end of the school year and the teachers were announcing the names of those who got awards. every student was excited, especially those who expect to receive even just a certificate. as much as everyone around her was very happy, she was still nervous, for a reason she doesn't know. maybe it was because she knew that it was already the end of the school year..
everybody was happy..students were laughing, telling jokes..even the teachers were happy. yes, she received something, but it seems that there was still missing in her.she strolled, indulging the beauty of her surroundings. the place was really clean.it was really different from the school she used to know. she could see familiar faces, from those belonging in her batch as well as those who are not. she hated it. the happiness of the atmosphere while she feels something not good is going to happen. she hated it.
she wants to be alone. have a moment with herself.
suddenly, she came to a place that seems to be isolated. students could pass by this place, but it seems that either they ignore it, or they simply couldn't just see this place. she stayed there and thought about many things..her past memories..she really was sad that time..
and then this girl came..she was also sad. she knew her. she could recognize her.. she wanted to reach out to her, to comfort her. she felt some sort of a familiar bond with this girl. whatever that bond is, it seemed to have disappeared. it's as if this girl was her sister, or a friend. she was crying. she doesn't know why. she couldn't help it. without realizing it, she found herself in front of the girl.
she was still crying, and the she placed her head on her shoulder and continued crying. she doesn't know why, but ironically, she felt relieved. she knew things were going to be okay. happiness suddenly came back to her. she comforted her. words were never spoken but still, she knew everything will be fine.
and then, she woke up..
"a dream is a wish your heart makes, when you're fast asleep.."
i agree..
"in dreams, you will lose your heartaches. whatever you wish for, you'll see.."
if that is so, i don't want to dream, for i fear that when i wake up, the heartaches are still there, stabbing your heart..
"have faith, in your dreams and someday, your rainbow will come smiling through..no matter how your heart is dreaming..if you keep on believing..a dream that you wish, will come true.."
i hope so..
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its been at least one month since he left, and i still can't cope with the changes. it really is hard. very sad, especially during nights, particularly during those hours when one tends to think about many things. those two years, especially those five months have been very memorable, and i know that it will never end there. this is just something people like us have to face, to fight, and we intend to win it. i don't want to grow old only reminiscing those days..i want to live them until i die.
this may sound hopelessly romantic..people may call this an obsession..well, call it whatever you want, i figured out very few people would understand this feeling.
this day is the start. the real start of everything. both will be busy and will have limited time to talk, but they will do everything..
almost everything in this world is not permanent, nor predictable. if there's one thing i am sure about, it would be that i love him. i miss him so much..and i am sure that he misses me too..
_aKu_
- MY LIFE STORY -
ako si mani..bakit mani? kasi masarap ako! haha (what the hell does that mean?) anyway, you found me, that's what's important..sabi sau e..hindi ako mahirap hanapin ^_^ thanks for bothering looking for me..even though i'm a mere nut only..thank you! i really appreciate your effort..
i want to be revitalized..i want to start anew..i'm getting tired of doing things that will seem to have no good outcome..i want to take back my pride, my dignity..
for those who have been hurt because of me, my actions, and my big mouth, i am very sorry..i know my faults, and i really want to make up for the mistakes that i have done..i have done my best and exerted a lot of effort..but to no avail. i have done my part and i think it is time to give myself a break..
please don't get me wrong..i am still here and is patiently waiting..but i guess i just have to let things be carried by the wind..i realized that sometimes, i really will not be able to control things..
and for those FEW people who could understand me and is always there beside me, thank you. i really thank you for being very patient to me..i just hope that you will never leave and will always be my friends.. =)
this is mani..and i hope you'll enjoy my new boring blog..haha XD
.lab ku.
tubig
sunlight
minerals
God
luis ^_^
green and yellow
.yak.
cockroaches
traffic jams
back stabbers
people pretending to be a somebody
