i am happy again..whew..thank goodness ^__^

i am really relieved =D

haha..what a boring blog, ne? just don't mind me..haha

_aKu_

have you ever been in love?

did your skin ever flush when you were near another person?

did your stomach ever feel like someone hollowed it out with a knife when you were apart?

did your throat ever swell when you realized it was over?

-Harry Kim, Star Trek Voyager.

try watching Voyager. it's amazing XD

i never realized that my hair was actually long before i had it cut. it really is funny. when i was a kid, my mother never let me had a long hair for a reason i do not know. she said that she wants my hair to grow thick, that's why she used to take me to a barber shop regularly. but now, now that my hair was short again, i'm not missing my long hair. when our regular visits to barber shops ended, i just let my hair grow. and without knowing it, my hair grew longer. it was my dream of having long hair, just like those seen on tv, but then, achieving that dream didn't make me excited. i guess i had been oblivious. other people were the ones who noticed. they would just say "banir! ang haba na pala ng buhok mo!" and i was like.."o?uu nga noh..hehe.."

so the picture above was taken when i was in first year high school. nene pa..haha..i don't know where he got that picture, but he told me my expression was like.. "chill..^_^" i guess i got the same expression in this picture.. haha XD

soooo..this picture was taken when i was a second year high school student. this was the day that i had my hair cut again. i was really pissed that day because of my hair cut. the guy (or should i say..gay) cut my hair a lot shorter than what i told him. it was really irritating! i totally looked like a preschool student when i had that hair cut..believe me, i don't want to remember it >_<

so this was a little after that stupid haircut..my hair had grown quite a little longer in this picture..so now i think you can imagine how short my hair really was because of the freakin' guy..uhm, i know we look quite a bit groggy here..haha..ganian talaga kami sa bahay..

arg..soo haggard-looking..haha..i think nino took this pic..hindi man lang sinabi sakin.para nakapagprepare ako.haha! XD uhm..so here, you can see that my hair grew only a little..just a few centimeters.that is how slow my hair grows..and it really is annoying, mind you.haha. this was, as you can see, during my third year high school days..(the first pic was during sci camp..mga groggy pa kami..hihi..wala kasing tulog) mendel..how i miss this section ^__^




okaaay..finally! my fourth year high school pics..showing me and my long hair XD i really never felt the long-ness of my hair..that time..i was just like..oh..okay, my hair could almost reach my waist..so what? haha..i really never realized that my hair had grown long..so..indulge yourselves (that is, if there are people visiting this blog..) with these pictures..i just hope that you won't need to go to a bathroom afterwards XD

my hair really takes time before getting long..ever since that stupid day when i was in second year, i never had a haircut..so..it took me two years to have a long hair..hmm..that is also the reason why i took a haircut now..not because it's hot..not because i got tired of having a long hair..but because it will take me years to grow my hair long again..hmm..2 years..i think that will be enough by the time he gets back, my hair is long again. ^__^

another thing..i think i am also getting fat as time passes by..hahaha XD

_aKu_

exams are here to haunt my life again. they just haunted my life a few weeks ago and now, they're here again. great. just as i thought college life will be a little "loose," the things happening right now are not what i had predicted it would be. believe me, college life, or rather, biology life is really a headache. you have to stay up late at night (not that im complaining. 4 years in masci made me used to it..) its just..i really didn't expect anything like this.

oh well, i guess not all things that you expect will actually happen. the hell..it's irritating to realize that up to now i haven't learned my lesson..

math17..math17..please spare me.. XD

the results of the second exams have been announced. and i guess it didn't made me completely happy. some of the exams' results are acceptable..tolerable..but there is one subject that i am not happy at all..

grabe. 40.5 lang ako sa biology!

and it is my major subject! haha. i'm really starting to realize that biology is not for me..well, botany particularly. i'm ashamed to say that i hate botany, while my mother loves plants. yes, i am amazed on how they grow, on how they develop. i'm just not interested on learning what's beneath the green color of their leaves, the hardness of their trunk..i, simply put, hate it..

these days, i have not been eating well. i tend to eat right meals only whenever i like, and during the times that i don't want to eat, i tend to consume foods that are not nutritious. wala lang..namention ko lang..bwahaha..anyway, i just want to change that.

i mean..you know..i guess i had been used to having somebody beside me to remind me of how i should eat..

hmm..my mother just turned 63 last wednesday..God bless her and may she have more birthdays to come..oh how i love my mother..belated happy birthday! ^__^

it's weird..taking advice from someone younger than me..

_aKu_

ako si mani..bakit mani? kasi masarap ako! haha (what the hell does that mean?) anyway, you found me, that's what's important..sabi sau e..hindi ako mahirap hanapin ^_^ thanks for bothering looking for me..even though i'm a mere nut only..thank you! i really appreciate your effort..

i want to be revitalized..i want to start anew..i'm getting tired of doing things that will seem to have no good outcome..i want to take back my pride, my dignity..

for those who have been hurt because of me, my actions, and my big mouth, i am very sorry..i know my faults, and i really want to make up for the mistakes that i have done..i have done my best and exerted a lot of effort..but to no avail. i have done my part and i think it is time to give myself a break..

please don't get me wrong..i am still here and is patiently waiting..but i guess i just have to let things be carried by the wind..i realized that sometimes, i really will not be able to control things..

and for those FEW people who could understand me and is always there beside me, thank you. i really thank you for being very patient to me..i just hope that you will never leave and will always be my friends.. =)

this is mani..and i hope you'll enjoy my new boring blog..haha XD


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MISS YOU

everyday and every night
this feeling i'd fight
try as i might but i won't win
i surrender, i'd die
you are winning here alright

every morning when the sun
would shine on me
i'd flash a smile but deep inside
i feel so sad and lonely
I NEED YOU HERE AND NOW

i miss you
it's crazy to pretend that
i don't think of you
the more this feeling
just seems to grow and grow

i miss you
oh how much longer can i hold on to?
maybe you can come and tell me
that you miss me too =)

miss you..

all i want is for this love
to last forever
you walked away, never came back
oh i tried to recover
i can't bear it boy alright

when i hear a song
that we had used to share
i try as might to hide the tears
and when the pain is over
i wish that you are near